To everyone who sent messages, comments, and emails after my last post: THANK YOU.
God has used each and every one of you to bless us in an amazing way. I could literally feel the prayers of so many who had gone to the Lord on our and Elliana's behalf last weekend.
Last Friday when I posted the update, my emotions were still raw. I was still feeling the pain and disappointment of the news we had received and wanted to be able to share with our friends and family right away. It was a hard day. And I chose to be honest about how hard it was.
But since Saturday morning, I have felt a strange sense of peace about it all. A quiet confidence that knows and trusts that God is in control of all things... including this situation.
That's not to say I am not still saddened by the reality that we may not see our baby until she's one year old, but I know there must be a bigger purpose in it than what I can see and what makes sense to me. And I am realizing that I'll never figure out why things happen the way they do.
So, I am making the choice to respect the mystery of God's providence.
I have made a new "to-do" list and Randy and I have been making plans. I am no longer going to live by the "maybe she'll be home by such and such" motto, but rather the "Choose this day whom you will serve" motto! And I pray we will live each day to the fullest and glorify our God in doing so.
Thank you so much again. You have ministered to my heart and soul this week and I am praising the Lord for you!